Beautiful Impurfekshuns
Sometimes i can be a pain in the ass, a bitch, a punk, a cry baby, a brat, a meany, a looser, a nerd, a jock, a mom , a wallflower, a bully, an over achiever, a wouebfbayuelr? ( what ever that means ), but im also a lady, a woman, a daughter, a hero, a friend, a role model, an AMBITIOUS GIRL, a human ( not African American, Hispanic, or other ), an artist, a photographer, a dancer, a singer, an actress, a child of God…in actuality, im every thing i am, yet everything i know i cant be…sometimes i come off as a rude, obnoxious freak, but thats because sometimes i cant handle alot of things im put through. my life isnt as easy as it looks, i have struggles & obstacles that i go through on a daily, but i know that God wont put me through something i cant handle. through my smiles you would never know that my heart is heavy & tired, sick & tired, of hurting but i know one day, a man ( not a boy ) will make my heart smile, he’ll tell me when im wrong, and praise me in times when i need uplifting, a man that will not abandon me like the man that birthed me, a man that understands im not pefect yet accepts me, flaw & all’s, even if i hit him when i get angry lol…im young, yet my mind is maturing everyday & i know that the past things are in the past for a reason & i refuse to make the same mistake twice…sometimes i can go on & on about absolutley nothing, but if someones willing to listen then maybe, just maybe they’ll learn something about me that they never knew…& maybe, when all things have fallen into place, when i have lived every day that i could to the fullest, i can watch my life flash before my eyes, & be satisfied with the things i see…i know im not what you expected, or want,but im Ryan, isnt that enough?
